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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Sullivan Ballou Killed at age 32; his wife was 24 and remained a widow until her death 56 years later

NOTE: the original letter has been lost and there are, in fact, several versions, most of which seem edited to leave out personal references. There seems no question the letter existed at one time and is an authentic document of the Civil War. (MUNRO)

July 14, 1861
Camp Clark, Washington

My very dear Sarah:
The indications are very strong that we shall move in a few days—perhaps tomorrow. Lest I should not be able to write again, I feel impelled to write a few lines that may fall under your eye when I shall be no more . . .

I have no misgivings about, or lack of confidence in the cause in which I am engaged, and my courage does not halt or falter. I know how strongly American Civilization now leans on the triumph of the Government and how great a debt we owe to those who went before us through the blood and sufferings of the Revolution. And I am willing—perfectly willing—to lay down all my joys in this life, to help maintain this Government, and to pay that debt . . .

Sarah my love for you is deathless, it seems to bind me with mighty cables that nothing but Omnipotence could break; and yet my love of Country comes over me like a strong wind and bears me unresistibly on with all these chains to the battle field.

The memories of the blissful moments I have spent with you come creeping over me, and I feel most gratified to God and to you that I have enjoyed them for so long. And hard it is for me to give them up and burn to ashes the hopes of future years, when, God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our sons grown up to honorable manhood, around us. I have, I know, but few and small claims upon Divine Providence, but something whispers to me—perhaps it is the wafted prayer of my little Edgar, that I shall return to my loved ones unharmed. If I do not my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, and when my last breath escapes me on the battle field, it will whisper your name. Forgive my many faults and the many pains I have caused you. How thoughtless and foolish I have often times been! How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness . . .

But, O Sarah! If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the gladdest days and in the darkest nights . . . always, always, and if there be a soft breeze upon your cheek, it shall be my breath, as the cool air fans your throbbing temple, it shall be my spirit passing by. Sarah do not mourn me dead; think I am gone and wait for thee, for we shall meet again . . .


Sullivan Ballou was killed a week later at the first Battle of Bull Run, July 21, 1861.

Born March 28, 1829 in Smithfield, R.I., Ballou was educated at Phillips Academy in Andover, Mass.; Brown University in Providence, R.I. and the National Law School in Ballston, N.Y. He was admitted to the Rhode Island Bar in 1853. He was descended from French Huguenot and Irish immigrants.

Ballou devoted his brief life to public service. He was elected in 1854 as clerk of the Rhode Island House of Representatives, later serving as its speaker.
He married Sarah Hart Shumway on October 15, 1855, and the following year saw the birth of their first child, Edgar. A second son, William, was born in 1859.
Ballou immediately entered the military in 1861 after the war broke out. He became judge advocate of the Rhode Island militia and was 32 at the time of his death at the first Battle of Bull Run on July 21, 1861.

When he died, his wife was 24. She later moved to New Jersey to live out her life with her son, William, and never re-married. She died at age 80 in 1917.
Sullivan and Sarah Ballou are buried next to each other at Swan Point Cemetery in Providence, RI. There are no known living descendants.

Ironically, Sullivan Ballou’s letter was never mailed. Although Sarah would receive other, decidedly more upbeat letters, dated after the now-famous letter from the battlefield, the letter in question would be found among Sullivan Ballou’s effects when Gov. William Sprague of Rhode Island traveled to Virginia to retrieve the remains of his state’s sons who had fallen in battle.


Svetlana Mamedova said...

Heart-wrenching story! And what language! One thing is to feel the emotions, but to express his sentiment in such eloquent, refined, poetical manner... Why, I wish I lived in the 19th century!


Yes, Svetlana and I hope you heard the music accompaniment to the letter which is read aloud.

Sullivan Ballow was what Highlanders call a LEAL AND TRUE MON that is to say a (Highland) Gentleman. He was a loving husband and father and he loved his young wife -only 24 years old!- very dearly. And yet when duty called -he was among the first to enlist he gave up a promising political career to serve as an infantry officer because his hero ABRAHAM LINCOLN asked for 75,000 volunteers. He was one of those 75,000 and those men saved Washington DC and probably the UNION. Harry Jaffa has written that if the North had lost history would have been entirely different. He said if slavery had continued in the USA the USA of 1939 would have been an Axis power and a an ally of Nazi Germany.

Just think of that! Could there have been a more horrible possiblity. So all the world owes Sullivan Ballou and the men who fought by his side for the Union and in a larger sense for the cause of Democracy and Freedom round the world.